identity

Reading back on my old writing or anything that I have done in the past really does make me cringe. But it is also insightful to do so from time to time because you can see all of the changes and progress that you've made. Growing up in a time period where social media is so prevalent is amazing yet difficult at the same time. On the one hand, I want to include the use of social media with my career in the future, yet on the other hand, I know that people can get so caught up with social media. I think that people my age, those of us who have grown up with the Internet, are not realizing their full identities. I watched a YouTube video about a girl who took a 30-day break from social media and afterward she explained what she realized. I agree with everything that she said. When we are scrolling mindlessly on social media sites and getting bombarded with images of people who are more successful than us or prettier than us or have more money than us and are using certain products which will guarantee YOU to have the same results and be like them, our real identities are being chipped away at and being replaced, instead, by these images and messages. I realized that since being on social media, some parts of my identity have definitely been influenced by certain people or trends on social media. In a way, when looking back at my old writing and cringing, it gives me back a sense of self that I had lost. Even though I had deleted all of my old posts when this blog was still named Artsy Peacock and I was still a pre-teen without a stress in the world, I promise to myself that I won't do that again. I want to be able to read what I wrote before and see how I have changed. I want to document me finding my identity once again. I think that was also a reason as to why I decided to return to blogging. Subconsciously, I knew that I needed to be back to my little corner of the Internet where I could freely express my thoughts and collect pieces of my lost identity that I desperately need back.

j.j.